Attitude Adjustment

Consistent with my new year's resolution, I have been working very hard at an attitude adjustment. It's been difficult, I will be the first to admit, but I am really trying. Trying to be an optimist, trying to have a little faith, trying to be patient (also on my lists of new year's resolutions) and trying to tell myself that really it will all work out and it has to get better.
I have been enjoying the warm California sun which has been a welcome change even in the last week. Don't get too jealous--it's still cold at night and there is no beach going yet, but the sun feels warm on my skin and makes studying more tolerable.
As some side notes, I re-watched Memento last night. Ironically, I had forgotten most of the movie from the last time I saw it. What really struck me was the need to make sense of a life and I wonder how much we do that and when it is okay. How do we justify our existence particularly when things don't work out as planned? Is that what differeniates happy people from sad people--those who find meaning in life and those who struggle and give up?
I also made some outstanding white bean dip that I want to share with you, perhaps to give meaning to my existence, who knows?
It's low fat (I think) and damn tasty.

White Bean Goodness
1 can of white beans
1/2 teaspoon of fresh cut up rosemary
1/2 teaspoon of crushed red pepper
Juice from 1 lemon
2 garlic cloves coarsely chopped

Throw it all in the food processor and let her rip. Add more rosemeary and red pepper to taste. I like it with tortilla chips but I like everything with tortilla chips so experiment with dippers of your choice. To make it pretty, garnish it with fresh rosemary and crushed red pepper.